sad

Well, since I started on the new medications I have had some problems.
What seems like a bladder infection has come up negative, my body tries to get used to the new drugs, diarrhea, nausea, muscle pain and other things have come about. Not fun. I can't tell if its the Lyme dying off or if the new drugs are causing it. I am waiting to speak with my specialist again.
Its hard when your body is adjusting to new medications but it certainly isn't fun at all. Makes me just want to quit everything and walk away. I know I can not. I know there are people out there whose suffering does not compare but sometimes I can't help but be bottled up in my world.
When will this all end? I want my life back, I want to do the things I used to do without the pain and fatigue and the limitations.
I feel like I haven't been a good parent or wife. I feel very alone sometimes even though people surround me. I know tomorrow will be better, it always is. I just feel a bit sad today.