Struggling with Setbacks (typical Lyme)

Sometimes you just feel like giving up. I know I can not, but some days when the symptoms come back you just feel like it.

Though not as severe most symptoms have returned and I continue with my daily swallowing of pills. Memory issues, saying what I want, misspelling words, minor pain, depression and tiredness have returned.
The depression I have stuggled with before but always have gotten through it.
I am normally a happy go lucky person, focusing on my artwork and creativity to get me through tough times. I am not quite sure the depression is related to Lyme but I will, as well as my husband, keep an eye on it.

When the symptoms do come back, which is expected because the treatment is killing them off, you feel like you will never feel good, pain free again. My husband as well as his sister are going through the same feelings, Jeff knows he can't give up, he coaches his sister, myself and others to keep going.

There is always something worse that can go wrong. I should be glad I am not dealing with cancer as so many of my loved ones are or have been.

At least I know that somewhere down the line that tiny shimmer of light will become more visable and within reach.
For those of you who feel the same, keep on going, talk it out, write it down, do whatever you can to keep the faith and smile alot.

MY SYMPTOMS

Since a few years back I had steadily become more achy in the knees, wrists, ankles and lower back. I truly thought that it was age related. Maybe some of it is. My thighs would also ache. Until this past year I noticed other symptoms but as I said before that they were mild and sporadic. These are some of the most recent:

increased motion sickness

short term memory problems

stabbing pains that last only seconds in various places such as, ankles, thigh, side, head, wrist, hand

my eyes went blurry one day while talking to a customer at work, both were blurry and then the right eye vision started to shake

extreme fatigue on occasion, tired most of the time

hard to concentrate

heart skipping beats, or beating funny for a few seconds

a slight buzzing in one ear

weakness in the knees and wrists

droopy eyelid

nausea

and I have notice over the last year and a half that spelling easy words was very hard

The most recent symptom was ear pain when I was chewing, now it has moved to the jaw, TMJ

I have started on the medications and supplements (one night and two days now) and noticed a change the next day. I wasn't achy at all, felt wide awake a ready to go. Even my eyes felt wide open. I ended up with nausea and diarrhia for the first couple of days but it is settling down. The Dr. said usually the symptoms get worse before they get better so we shall see. I know that my husband felt good the next day when starting his meds and then got worse for a few weeks.

Today I don't have as much energy and it is difficult to type and spell correctly.

I have worked in my garden planting flowers and weeding today, took my son out and now I am home writing this but plan on relaxing on the couch for a bit.

Feeling like a new person yesterday was amazing and I can't wait to feel that way forever.